HI THERE, I'M XAVIER

At the core of my work, there is a devotion to depth and a commitment to self liberation.

I could've never foreseen that my path would lead me here...

Like many other people, I didn't find the path I'm on. It found me. My I left my home country (Cameroon) in 2013 to pursue a Ph.D. in economics at the University of Montreal, I imagine that I would end up working as a university professor or in any other big organization where I felt like I was doing meaningful work. It didn't take long before I realized it wasn't my path. In 2014, that realization led me to drop out of the Ph.D., even though it was a full paid scholarship. It was the culmination of a spiritual awakening that had started in the late 2000's.

Withdrawing from the Ph.D. caused a great fracture in my relationship with my family of origin and caused me to lose many friends.

That was the beginning of a great dark night of the ego. Feeling Isolated in an other country, and ultimately wrestling with feelings of failure, alienation and family estrangement, I had to begin the grueling journey of reinventing myself.

That was the real beginning of my first conscious contact with my own shadow, and how much it had been running the show in my life.

From shadow careers to surrender.

Between the years 2015 and 2018, I went through many shadow careers. These were endeavors that came close enough to the work I ultimately wanted to do, but not quite it. I knew I wanted to help people with their wellbeing but I did not feel worthy or ready to embrace my work the way I am doing it now. So I tried being a network marketer of health supplements, I became a fitness coach and even opened a gym in Montreal with my fiancée Renee and other business partners. Ultimately, I realized that it was all a form of avoidance, even though I learned invaluable lessons from these experiences.

Self liberation is my muse, integration is the art, and I am their devotee.

In 2018, we decided to shut down the gym and I embraced more seriously the journey of resolving the inner conflicts that prevented me from fully saying yes to my path. This journey of in-depth shadow integration is what led me to a deeper surrender. It helped me resolve deep wounds that I was carrying from the past, and I reclaimed the spiritual stamin necessary to walk the path I am walking now. This journey has been at the core of my realization that your shadow self is nothing but the dark face of your higher self, asking of you to awaken.

Reclaiming authority and authorship of your path, and letting your light call the shots.

I truly believe that we are navigating times where repressing your brightness has become more challenging on the nervous system than repressing our deepest pain. My work is focused on helping you resolve the inner conflicts and emotional distress that hinder your ability to thrive in your relationships and in your dharma.

Surrendering to this work has caused me to deepen my personal relationship with God or the divine, and my own inner divinity. My intuition is my trusted guide and that wisdom follows me deeply in my work and writing.

At the end of this lifetime, when all is said and done, I want my heart to be covered in scars of gold.

My journey has graced me with the immense privilege to be writing a book called scars of gold, that will be published in 2025 by Hay House. This book represents the culmination of the tools and practices that will help the readers embrace deeper self liberation, integration and healing through shadow work.

When I am not holding space, teaching or writing, I spend most of my time loving my family and enjoying the profound transformation that comes with fatherhood.

I am a dad of 3. Ayden, Stea and Eli are the souls that blessed me with the gift of being their father in this lifetime. The journey of fatherhood has been and continues to be a profound initiation in my life. Every day with them is an exercise in opening my heart more that I thought was possible. When Ayden was born in January 2019, it was a critical turning point in my life that activated my deep devotion to my work. Stea followed in 2020, and Eli came in 2021. Yes three kids in 3 years, during times of profound collective turmoil. It has been a powerful initiation.

I'm a family man at the core

Renee has been by my side since 2014. We've witnessed each other's highs and lows and our devotion to intimacy and connection feels ever growing. Even though we've been together for over 10 years, and that we know everything about each other, every day feels like a new beginning. Our relationship continues to grow in depth and intimacy, and her devotion to our family is one of the main reasons I have been able to immerse myself in my work.

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